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Unable to draw.

3 min read
It's been weird lately.

I try to draw. I sit in front of my laptop at least once a week, but nothing happens. I just stare at the screen for 5 minutes before I move on to something else, usually not involving computers.
The things that I would like to draw are adventures with friends mostly, or memories concerning people who are close to me. I dismiss them. As I'm growing older, I have become selfish with my precious memories, I do not share these things with others and definitely not with the internet. 
It's an annoyance that what I wish to draw are things I have no intentions of sharing.

Also, I haven't been much of a fan of anything lately to produce fan art. My consumption of entertainment dropped drastically.

As for original content, I produce those for a living. Not comics or anything like the stuff I post here on dA. It's mostly concepts and ideas for ads, sometimes films and documentaries. And then a team and I brings the VFX parts of them to life. Just this month we worked on 4 different jobs and helped pitch a fifth. And honestly, even though it's a good living (I make decent money but I'm not even close to being rich), it takes its toll on me creatively. My imagination these days just won't work after work hours.

I wish to draw regularly again. It was insanely fun. That's why I did it in the first place. I have no idea how to do it anymore.
I sometimes think I should take a month off, just go home, to my place (the apartment that I own, that I fixed up, and hardly used), lock myself in and just go crazy with ideas uninterrupted and get that imagination flowing again.
But, honestly, that would freak out everyone I know, I would miss my partner by the second day, and all my commitments and obligations would suffer as a consequence.

What I'm trying to say is, I don't know how to get back to drawing, it's something that I miss dearly. Drawing was always an excuse to play again. It's a nice bubble.

If I did it for a living I would probably hate it. That is why it stayed a hobby. But hobbies need dedication as well.

I think I am just out of ideas and uninspired. It's a rut maybe? 
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Finally, I managed to upload the entire thing!

Thank you for all the comments faves and support over the years (even though I was mostly missing for 3 and a half of them) This was an incredible learning experience (plus, I hate leaving things unfinished).

Way below is an easy way to access all of Second Chances.

I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed making it.

And go play Dragon Age: Origins if you never have. It’s a masterpiece of storytelling. I am still blown away by the number of story lines this game is capable of taking you on. I loved the old BioWare.


Dragon Age: Origins fancomic

On deviantArt

Chapter 01

Chapter 02

Chapter 03

Chapter 04

Chapter 05

Chapter 06

Chapter 07

Chapter 08

Chapter 09

Chapter 10

Chapter 11 Summary

Chapter 12 Drafts

Chapter 13 Drafts

Chapter 14 Drafts

Chapter 15 Drafts

Chapter 16 Drafts

Chapter 17 Drafts  

Chapter 18 Drafts  


Or

On Tumblr

The archive

Chapter 01

Chapter 02

Chapter 03

Chapter 04

Chapter 05

Chapter 06

Chapter 07

Chapter 08

Chapter 09

Chapter 10

Chapter 11 Summary

Chapter 12 Drafts

Chapter 13 Drafts

Chapter 14 Drafts

Chapter 15 Drafts

Chapter 16 Drafts

Chapter 17 Drafts  

Chapter 18 Drafts partA  

Chapter 18 Drafts partB  


What's next?

I have no idea.


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Thanks!!!

1 min read
Thank you for the birthday wishes! They brought a big smile to my face 8)
I'm a bit sick, horrible throat pain, puffy eyes. It was really awesome reading your wishes today. Made it a bit better.

Anyways, best wishes to all of you too! I mean it. And wish me luck, it's a very tough couple of months.
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It seems these days I only check in to apologize for insane delays.

Second chances has only 3 chapters left, and those are 80% drafted with the exception of a few pages which are just notes. They only need the text to be added in.
Honestly I was on vacation last week, lots of sun, awesome pool, and a pretty beach. I took my laptop with me to work on the fancomic, but who am I kidding... I couldn't sit still in the evenings. The boyfriend and the constant visits from guests and friends didn't help. And I'm travelling to Scotland in less than 3 days. I was so tempted to sit and fill in the text after rereading the last 3 chapters today but, man, I have to pack, finish up a few things, buy some winter clothes, and replace my dead phone. I don't know how long I will stay in Scotland. The plan is one month with a possibility of that turning into 2 or 3. But I plan to be home with my folks for Christmas. I draw a lot when I'm at my family's house. It's very quiet and I have my little corner and no boyfriend or distractions around. I intend to post chapter 16 this December.

People might think it's silly that I have the fancomic somewhere filed in the back of my head, but I REALLY HATE to leave things unfinished regardless of what people think about it, even those close to me who think I should have dedicated the time I gave SC working on a real comic. I did enjoy working on SC a LOT. I think it was a good thing. I didn't have a story I wanted to draw or the skills to draw it. Dragon Age: Origins inspired me. It was fun, I experimented, I learned a lot, at some point, I gave it around 3 to 6 hours of my time weekly for three months straight. It was good drawing practice that I didn't get anywhere else. And I met a lot of people on deviantArt, especially artist and art lovers. I rarely got to meet people like that in real life before I started travelling.

Anyways, I wanted to thank the people who stuck around this long regardless of whether I was around or not. And thanks to the people who leave comments and faves and watch my page.
For someone who loves hang gliders, I'm terrified of airplanes. I have to take two flights to get to Scotland and I'm super stressed.

See you when I get back.
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Late updates

1 min read
Hello,
Sorry updates for my fancomic will be around 2 weeks late. We had a wedding in the family yesterday and I have a close friend's wedding to attend this weekend. This summer I'm invited to 2 more. >8u and I'm screwed, they all know each other so I have to buy a dress for each one (already got 3)! Not to mention I have to get gifts for each of them (and not the casual kind).
T_T I was planning to save a bit of monies this year. No luck.
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