It's been weird lately.
I try to draw. I sit in front of my laptop at least once a week, but nothing happens. I just stare at the screen for 5 minutes before I move on to something else, usually not involving computers.
The things that I would like to draw are adventures with friends mostly, or memories concerning people who are close to me. I dismiss them. As I'm growing older, I have become selfish with my precious memories, I do not share these things with others and definitely not with the internet.
It's an annoyance that what I wish to draw are things I have no intentions of sharing.
Also, I haven't been much of a fan of anything lately to produce fan art. My consumption of entertainment dropped drastically.
As for original content, I produce those for a living. Not comics or anything like the stuff I post here on dA. It's mostly concepts and ideas for ads, sometimes films and documentaries. And then a team and I brings the VFX parts of them to life. Just this month we worked on 4 different jobs and helped pitch a fifth. And honestly, even though it's a good living (I make decent money but I'm not even close to being rich), it takes its toll on me creatively. My imagination these days just won't work after work hours.
I wish to draw regularly again. It was insanely fun. That's why I did it in the first place. I have no idea how to do it anymore.
I sometimes think I should take a month off, just go home, to my place (the apartment that I own, that I fixed up, and hardly used), lock myself in and just go crazy with ideas uninterrupted and get that imagination flowing again.
But, honestly, that would freak out everyone I know, I would miss my partner by the second day, and all my commitments and obligations would suffer as a consequence.
What I'm trying to say is, I don't know how to get back to drawing, it's something that I miss dearly. Drawing was always an excuse to play again. It's a nice bubble.
If I did it for a living I would probably hate it. That is why it stayed a hobby. But hobbies need dedication as well.
I think I am just out of ideas and uninspired. It's a rut maybe?